Where in the world is she? Where did she go?
Almost a year ago I came to grips with a difficult decision. I needed to take a couple of months away from my blog. The difficulty arose from the realization I was giving in to my pain and resulting depression. Giving in is not in my nature.
Two months grew into six. Then into ten, and here we are today, a bit over a year later. Without saying anything more, I let the months slip by. Finally, my courage and determination have gotten the better of me. I’m stepping out from behind those excuses.
Although I fight pain every day and struggle infrequently with bouts of depression, I can no longer cast aside writing, something I have loved for years. Tasks sit around our home begging my attention, but somehow I can ignore them without a feeling of loss. However, I feel a pullback to this keyboard and words. The “others” will need to stand by and learn to wait.
A return to the blog will be slow with one post every other week. Once I get my writing mojo back that will likely change.
One of my last posts focused on acceptance. As I prepare to begin writing posts again, I have reread a few of my last posts. When I wrote Acceptance, my thinking was focused on the pandemic and changes occurring in our lives.
The question that came to mind as I read my words again was why I couldn’t accept my chronic health issues with grace. Why couldn’t I push through them to regain my creative love of writing? It takes determination to accept my current situation while I trust in the medical community to help me improve, if possible. But I cannot give up on my writing.
What I can do is rely on a Power higher and stronger than me Who is always with me, no matter what I’m doing.
It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.
~ Deuteronomy 31:8
In the days to come, I will share memories and life stories as well as reviews of good books, both nonfiction and fiction. Perhaps even a writing tip or two.
Here’s wishing you a Happy New Year,